HELLO. GOODBYE.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Dear diary

And hello.
(: okay prelims is overrrrrrr....
i got BBE/EE. 65 RP.
anw thats long over.
Pre As....
Math i still can manage to get a B...
physics i think i can get A...
econs.. i not sure. must ask teacher mark...
GP.. wa sibei xiong... sure fail.
hais.
left chem.
jiahua uh jiahua... A's come in 3 week's time why are you still playing... and slacking
): f*ck this.... seriously.....
i just feel like getting over with this A's shit.
I don't want to be in this burden anymore...
i want it to be over and done with....
so i can see her with another guy and tell me she was just playing.
"sorry, i know you're just playing but i still play along with you".
"what if i wasn't?"
if you weren't playing, then i wouldnt feel so f*cking dumb
to stare and wait for nothing,
watch you smile and zone out thinking of him.

I know I'm not the one dont lie to me,
You just love to make me bleed.
I swear I can't take it
Knowing somebody's got my baby.
I wish you could just let me live
the life I chose, the life for me.
All I wish is for you to see
that you're the single missing piece.
All those times I bloodied my fists,
they couldn't hurt more than this:
to know that you're the one I miss,
yet still bear with the pain of watching you leave.

Jia Hua

hello goodbye; 11:13 PM

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Dear diary

it's been a long time since i last blogged....
i'm just so busy collecting and grieving over my results..
):
i'm left with econs, which will be out only tomorrow......
so far i haven't failed anything (in the school's context)
because i havent scored below E...
but E IS a fail innit? its below 50%! ):
hais.... GP i got E.... paper 1: 21/50, Paper2: 27.5/50
Chem, i got E too ):
Paper 1: 18/30, Paper 2: 33/80... D:
Math i got C.. STILL C.. ):
paper1: 52/100, Paper2: 62/100.... hais.. where's my B? ):
Physics...... WTF i fking need 2 more percent to get to A la WTF!?!?! ):
hais..... i needed 4 more marks from paper 1 la..
DAMMIT!
Paper1: 28/40.. Paper2: 43.5/72... Paper 3: 59/80
paper1 is 23.53%, paper2 is 35.29%, paper 3 is 41.18%...
walan eh!!!!!!
pcb la....
T_T
hais. nvm..
so now GP: 5, Chem: 5, Math: 15, Physics: 17.5........
so now i have.... 42.5 rank points..
hais.. econs sure fail..
so its 42.5 rank points. hais......

life sucks without you........

YOURS
jiahua

hello goodbye; 10:05 PM

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Dear diary

Long time no blog... Really tired right now...
Ytd was naval diver training.
So dam tiring. From morning 730 til night 915.
I did second highest number of chin up :D
17! Hehehe
anyways, chem answers get back already
sure fail one. So many mistakes and so dam hard!
Today give back math paper one
I scored 52/100! I thought I would fail it la... Paper one was dam hard!!!
Now wait for Paper two to come back... I hope it would be alot better cus I Thought it was easier

Alright I shall go to bed already. Very damn Tired...
Night night sweet dreams

yours
jiahua

hello goodbye; 11:29 PM

Friday, August 27, 2010

Dear Diary...

It's been awhile now...
and prelims are finally over..
but that also means that its our last lap before the A's...
and im still playing everyday, slacking off, carving A's.....
and guess what..
1st sept i have to report to sembawang naval base at like 730am?
wth la how to reach there sia.. i dun even know where it is..
and i dont have any form of entertainment to keep myself ENTERTAINED
for the whole naval diver's test.. =.=
sly took 11 hours before he was out....
how long will i take? lols.
cant bring phone in...... what else do i have as entertainment?
anyone can lend me some... FUN stuff to play with for that day? ><
hais... i hate sleeping..
because everyday, i dream of the same things over, and over again...
and when i finally wake up, i realise that all these are just in my head...
if we only dream of what we want the most,
then i guess that everyday, i want you to be with me....
but whenever i wake up, i'm all alone in my bedroom again.
and i realise that im back here, where Life is taking it's toll on me for 18 years, and counting.
I want out.. now...
enough of all these.... i never really had what i wanted in life...
why can't we just run away to a place where there is no reality like there is here?
where we can just sit there and not worry about tomorrow...
to lie down there under the skies and gaze upon the stars...
where the moon would show a smile with blinking eyes and glitter all over the sky...
where life, would then be defined as "you and i".
a place where i can just wake up and know that you're there by my side..
to watch the sunrise on your face.
to know that i'll be prepared for anything because i finally knew how it felt to hold you.
so that just before i die, i know that i don't have to wonder how it feels to hold you anymore.

but thats just a world parallel to ours...
where in ours, L.I.F.E. simply means that
when you open up your heart and mind,
you'll be saying "Look, It's F*cking Empty!"
because we will never get what we really want but what we never really asked for.
where you know that there is nothing to keep within our hearts
because we'll never get a chance to come across something worth a place in our hearts.
because all I'll ever keep in my heart is you... but you're never here...

Yours
JiaHua
I can't tell you what it really is; I can only tell you what it feels like.
And right now, it's a knife in my windpipe.

hello goodbye; 1:21 PM

Friday, August 20, 2010

Dear diary

Okay today was econs p1 and phy p2....
econs wasnt really good.. cus i know i cant finish it..
and then it was time for phy.. chiong the SPA task design first..
then do the rest.
do until no time
kns... got qn 6,7,8, i left 15 mins..
so i do.. qn 6... do until left 7 min... then i see.. got last part.
KNS so complicating dowan do.
SKIP.
then reach qn 7... i didnt even read the info. i just jump to the qn..
chiong
finish liao then left like 2min
chiong qn 8....
its a DRQ... and i didnt read the info.. i just chiong the qn. LOL.
end up still cant finish zzzzz
oh well...
im sick still == it sucks..

Yours
JiaHua

hello goodbye; 8:13 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Dear diary

okay im back lols finally
and im sick.... zzzzz
tmr is physics and econs... gg liao.. almost all my subjects v lousy now.. hais.....

night nights sd...

Yours
Jia Hua
sighs* i really wanted you and me

hello goodbye; 9:55 PM

Friday, August 13, 2010

Dear Diary

I think i'm falling ill.....

Yours
JiaHua

hello goodbye; 7:35 PM