HELLO. GOODBYE.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Dear diary

I promised you i would write to you didnt i?(:
yesterday was a bad day...
I can't believe i was blamed for something i didnt do!
whats more, eileen blamed me!):
was so moodless to do annything yesterday...

today was better, but still, whats the point?
sylvester went home after the first hour
cus he says he has a bad tooth ache..
sweet tooth i see?
then was gp.. i just can't stop myself from sleeping ):
during break went down to packet food up to class.
then was math..
mr ng is really a nice teacher la...
anyways.. had the two hour break.
had to go for econs retest!!
blah skip it... i'm not gonna tell you what i did.

after school....
went to study!... alone.....
lols. cant believe it.. whenever my head's looking down,
even if i'm looking down at my paper,
i'll tend to fall asleep
then came yizhen..
i mean.. pigzhen..
so i studied with her and her friend..
end up she talk soooo much!
she did sooooo little!
so end up i talk to them too :X
it was fun la k...
nothing much to say liao..
zumei... either very innocent, or very guai lan..
choose one ba. ==

write to you some other time. i'm so sleepy.
night night! sd!

Yours
Jiahua

hello goodbye; 9:27 PM

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Dear diary.

It's been a long time since i last wrote to you.
Today was so tiring.
had 3 hours of physics....
so dry!
then, was GP....
gosh. dont you agree, diary, that thats worse?
And whats next?? CHEM!
I know you agree that its the worst combination of subjects..
it was such an incentive to sleep!
but i didnt.. i persevered and stayed on!
right after school... went to study at the study.
then daniel saw me and asked me
if i wanted to study with him in the classroom.
so i went with him, since its cold in the study and he's alone.
then, the school admin person came to lock the rooms
so we had to move out.... ):
moved back to the study
so freezing in there that the glass is all blurred..
study until around 8pm...
then went to find jeremy and gang... and slack till 9...
since my hw is all done!!! :P

okay i promise to write to you again soon! (:

Yours
Jiahua.

hello goodbye; 11:13 PM

Sunday, March 21, 2010

stayed over yesterday night...

at ahma house! (:
played Monopoly with my sister and my cousin...
totally retarded..
my cousin..
best..
before she complete 2 rounds, she go to jail 3 times.
LOL. got the 3 doubles for two times in a row, then, stepped on
"Go To Jail"
HA!
total, she went to jail for like... 11 times.
hahaha power shit.
then i traded my parklane for her Bond Street.
and she agreed!
best is, i stepped on my green lanes every round!
so every round build one house
until my cousin stepped on my turf!
she was like so scared to step on my turf..
counting her steps,
double checking
and tadar.
900 dollar please.
she was the richest at the start..
cus i always spam money like hell.
but then
as usual
when the game ended
i got $4614...
my sister.. the usual poor kid
$1000++
my cousin from 4000+ drop till 2000+.
joke..

stayed up til around 4 for monopoly,
then lied down and listen to music until 530
when my ahma wake up then i sleep
hahaha

so fun.... so so so fun
okay... then... i had yizhen to emo with me...
LOL
hmm.. nothing much.. i practically just
stayed at ahma house without doing any work!!
T_T oh no im so dead.

I still believe in destiny,
that you and I were meant to be.

hello goodbye; 12:45 PM

Friday, March 19, 2010

maybe it's just me.
but couldnt you believe?
that everything I said and did
wasn't just decieving.

My heart is torn in two,
thinking of days spent without you.
I'm counting all the things I could have done to make you see
That I wanted us to be
what I go to sleep and dream of;
I want you to know that I'd die for you,
I'd die, for you.
If you are alone, make sure you're not lonely.
'cus if you are, i'd blame myself.
for never being there,
I know I'm not the only one
who will treat you like they should,
like you deserve.

It's like I waited my whole life,
for that one time,
to hear you say you love me.

you just remind me of it all,
all the days we had together.
the way you smile
the way you told me you loved me.
the way you smiled.
the way you made me feel.
and the way you threw it all away.
i just can't live with it.
i just can't believe we aren't together.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before.
And now I'm missing you
and I wish you'd come back through that door.
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know,
so now I'm all alone.
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance.
with you not around it's a little more than i can stand.
and all my tears they,
keep running down my face.
why did you turn away?

so why does your pride make you run and hide?
are you that afraid of me?
but i know it's a lie, what you keep inside.
this is not how you want it to be.

so baby I will wait for you.
'cus i dont know what else i can do.
don't tell me I'll run out of time.
if it takes the rest of my life,
baby I will wait for you.
if think i'm fine it just ain't true.
I really need you in my life.
no matter what i have to do, I'll wait for you.

What will it take to make it come back?

what can i say?
you take my breath away.
there's nothing i can do
now that i've fallen for you.
you're not to blame.
i just wished everything stayed the same.

hello goodbye; 12:41 PM

Thursday, March 18, 2010

okay... today.. thursday...
freaaaking cannot sleep last night..
so hot! keep waking up in the middle of the night.
then, we went to sentosa..
pegasus... ogls... come on we've won the fight,
but dont lose the war!
A levels coming! study hard!
omg my back hurts like hell...
i dont know why... ):

That makes me feel.
That makes me realise.
Realise that you're a part of me.
whats a day without you?

I used to think that I can't live without you.
Now I feel it.

stab me in the heart.
slice it into pieces.
do whatever you want to me.
my love will never die.

hello goodbye; 7:25 PM

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Physics...

okay.. today reach school at 730 cus physics starts at 730..
and we had physics till 1pm..
then, at 1.30pm, physics postmortem..
i was like mentioned so many times thru the mike..
stupid la... i special mention sia
the boy who used calculator RANDOM to finish his paper 1.
but my paper two... answers alot of them i got them right..
so lets just hope for the best prepare for the worst..

today was boring SH*T! someone jio me out pls?

hello goodbye; 5:30 PM

Sunday, March 14, 2010

FAT LIAO!

oh nooo...
very long never exercise liao
everyday at home face laptop!
just like now!!
ohh nooooo
how?
i'm becoming fat fat!

Okay right now
i'm at my grandma's house..
staying over tonight cus my cousin and my sister is staying too!
but i cant believe it we have nothing to do,
and it is so boring, quiet and tiring..
first time i feel so tired at a stay-over...
supposed to be hyped up and playing..
but no~~..
i feel like sleeping!!!
PIG ME.
):

hello goodbye; 1:44 AM

Friday, March 12, 2010

i really think he likes you...
too.

wtf? my mom's being a total b*tch..
come home ask this ask that,
i dont even have the chance to catch
MY
damn breath...
then, she starts going off...
then i just plug in my earphones..
as usual.
blast
blah blah cant hear.
then guess what?
she asked me THE STUPIDEST OF QUESTIONS:
"is your sis and dad back yet?"...
and that question came like
FIVE
FULL
MINUTES
after she came home...
you mean.. she can't check?!!!
she's just trying to get a response from me
so that she can have something to f*ck up to again.
so i just let her f*ck up.
tells her "cant you see?"
and she did THE CHILDISH-EST OF THINGS:
threw my socks out of the window.
OOOoooooOoOO my socks from LV uh?
ppl want to snatch downstairs ah?
drop on ppl car they SUE you la dumb*ss
let it be lor... nevermind one..
not my money.
at most i dont wear socks to school.
rules never say must wear socks.
infact,
shoes are so comfortable w/o socks!

hey b*tch...
look
*__*

hello goodbye; 10:20 PM

(woots)
today end of common test..
stupid la...
physics paper.... i start on paper 2..
still not say v hard..
then do until left 10 minutes for paper 1..
kns.. i use calculator...
"RandInt(1,4)"
LOL! random!
25 of my questions,
25 answers are randomed by calculator
:D
stupid la! haha
mmmm... enjoying my spaghetti..
(:

hello goodbye; 12:55 PM

Thursday, March 11, 2010

still sick...

sh*t man.. i shouldnt have went to school today...
i feel so nauseous now...
feel like puking.. but no puke to puke..
):
v uncomfortable
n my throat HURTS!!!
stupid la.. go to school today to take common test,
end up oso cant get A..
dam hard la can...
and my brain can't function well.. lols...
stupid ric.. keep making noise during the paper..
throughout the paper...*
cant he just shut up, for once?
i know its not an illness.. its a habit.

now i'm home, thinking what to study for physics..
i dowan to do badly for physics.. ):
i'm so tired, and so giddy, and so nauseous..
help!!!

its killing me softly.
i'm screaming but nothing comes out~

hello goodbye; 1:11 PM

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

SPRING GREEN!?!

nooooooo i just got myself 10 points LESS!!!
today was chem paper..
sleep at 11 last night.. but woke up at 1.. i cant sleep!
throughout the hours of pre-dawn i just cant sleep.
have fever all the way, sore throat, body ache, cough, flu...
so end up never go school. cus have mc also.
but i wanted to go, even when i have mc..
i want my 10 points!

i'm having it within or without your consent.
next up, Math.. still having a head-quake...
feel so giddy.. so painful...
hopefully it won't be too cold tmr.

hello goodbye; 6:35 PM

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

TEAL.

i'm ill...
on the 2nd day of common test...
whaow...
dont know how i'm going to survive....
GP, sure fail. cmi.
econs, no time. but know how to do.
whats next? chem....
alot to study... ):
i hate life.

suffering my illness bit by bit,
savouring the moment.

hello goodbye; 6:01 PM

Friday, March 5, 2010

SKY BLUE!!!!!

okay.. today just too not in the mood for anything.
i duno why...
go to school, cant seem to smile at anything much..
not for long at least.
slack after school so long
then go see result taking.
not bad sia so many 80+ pointers.
alot bball..
my name next year.
got back chinese results.. E..
woot dunid to retake..
study til 6+... but 2 hour finish 1 qn..
fking hell dam hard la.
then go home.
thats all...

not in the mood today...
waiting for my lucky hour of 11pm.
and using my lucky number of 53

hello goodbye; 9:48 PM

Thursday, March 4, 2010

PURPLE!!!

okay.. today was so tiring...
had PE, play abit bball..
blocked a noob action kid.
in the face...
tall big deal?
solo big deal?
then whats next..
ct period.. talk so much crap
then mr nordin let us go early oso
as usual :P
but then, let us go also because got to go for principal dialogue.
mr tan talk so much..
v tired..
then finish liao went to library to study until 8...
so tired now..
exhausted.
gonna study tmr again...

cya people

hello goodbye; 9:43 PM

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

COPPER!!!!

okay today i "slept" in chem..
close my eyes every time... keep dozing....
broke my 8 day streak! lols
and i didnt study after school today!
planned to.. but ended up watching SR vs NY soccer match.
we lost... i saw the 3 goals anwar let in..
but good effort anwar...
and we scored 2 goals.. nice goals too.

today had this tremendous headache..
HAVE this tremendous headache..
idk whats wrong.. keep having headaches..
):
physics test got 27 out of 36...
so bad!
all because of my small handwriting..
minus 4 marks cus of my handwriting. hais.
i'm supposed to be the top..
):

For me is waking up beside you,
to watch the sunrise on your face,
To know that i can say i love you.

hello goodbye; 10:03 PM

Monday, March 1, 2010

too little,
too f*cking late.

okay.. amazed still.. 6 consecutive school days i never sleep in school.
common test coming up next week and i'm not doing anything.

stayed back after school to study..
finish up my freaking GP...
then did my vectors..
wow i pretty enjoy studying.. amazingly..
studied till around erm... 6.30 or something la..

FRIENDS....
idk why people make friends.
its just a stupid excuse that friends are there
thru thick and thin
i guess you'll only know when you're going thru the downs in life.
"friends" start leaving you cus you're not as good as them.
or so they think....

hello goodbye; 9:51 PM