HELLO. GOODBYE.

Friday, April 30, 2010

Dear diary.

okay it's been very long since i wrote to you..
okay..
for the past few days not much things happened...
just that my ex hates me so much she tells me to jump off a 40 storey building.
using all the profound words,
she thought i couldnt understand her...
kept saying that i was an insult to the English language..
oh well. what can i do?
I cant stop her from saying all those....
just because i didnt show it,
doesnt mean i dont understand it, my dear.
I won't be mad at you... you should be mad at me.
it's fine...
i won't argue with you, I'll leave you with the task of getting the full story.

okay.
now
for school
wow.. daniel showed me his skin problem on his right shoulder!
gosh....
it was like... rash-pimples..
its on his upper right chest all the way to the back of his shoulders...
ALL red, all with rash-pimples.
he needs to seek medical help soon....
today stayed back to do my physics correction...
tho i havent failed so far..
i got 19/35.. how good is that?

just as we finished our corrections,
he told me not to look back..
i was like.. "huh?" look back?
look back at what? literally or not?
then i thought for a moment...
finally understood what he meant...
oh well.. he wanted the best for me...
just that I can't let go of her..
because I still believe I'm made to be hers,
i believe it's her where my life began.
and she'll be where it ends.
i'm not intending to let her go.

Grass vodka.... what can you expect from
a 0.5l bottle of vodka?
it smells like shit...
tastes like medicine.
wth...
absolut tastes better la... ==
i'm so tired now..
goodbye.

Yours.
Jia Hua

hello goodbye; 8:31 PM

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Dear diary.

It's been quite some time since i wrote to you.
busy these few days..
yesterday had to go back to school..
then went to lan with friends....
that revealed jiayu's true colours.
the real him..
win-minded, competitive, to win at any costs.

have to go to school later.. soon..
well.. nothing really fantastic happened to me...
my life's just boring..
oh well.

Yours
JiaHua

Girl, you should be my lady.

hello goodbye; 9:54 AM

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Dear Diary

i feel so dumb...
so dumb..
dumb..
i was childish...
i thought that love was just you and me together,
and that's it.
but now i realised
that love is more than you and me together.
love is cherishing every single moment i spent with you.
cherishing you
I always thought that it was all about me.
love is just about me being loved by you.
Me in your arms.
Me in your eyes.
but i was wrong.
love is more than me.
It's more about you than anyone else.
You.
You in his eyes.
You and Your happiness.
You and your love.

And if i could ever be there with you again,
I won't be there for your heart.
I'll be there to return it to you.
I'm sorry if i've hurt you.
I'm sorry.
Because love isn't about taking.

Yours
JiaHua

I just wish you are happy.

hello goodbye; 4:12 PM

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Dear Diary

had lessons today.. Econs lecture.. at 8.. wow.. stupid time..
now i'm home so tired.
i just keep thinking of her...
remembering all the times..
remembering all the days...
remembering it all....
i just can't let her go..

I really meant everything i said.
I'm into you and no one else would do.
Maybe its just me, but couldnt you believe
that everything i said and did wasn't just decieving?

write to you again..

Yours
Jia Hua

"Her name is Jing Yi."

hello goodbye; 1:10 PM

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Dear diary.

Oh well...
my stomach is feeling better today....
NY breezed over SR yesterday..
i would believe if they told me that the ref is biased.....
but i wont believe it if they tell me they weren't too ego-istic
frederick.... stop being stubborn....
LISTEN to advice and comments....
thats how you improve...
and LISTEN also spells SILENT.....
so while you listen, DONT ARGUE...

today was SHIT..
pe didnt bring.... had to slack at fitness corner alone..
do alot of chin up.
until even my FINGERS kena blister.

then had physics chem and math...
boring boring boring.
breaktime....
waited for bluffer to buy his food..
SO LONG...
went to class... SLACKKKKK
then was physics..... gosh why is physics getting harder and harder?
Then, math.....
teacher not here....
talk and talk and talk.. walk around..
slack...
then went to gym with daniel and sylvester and marcus..
sylvester lose me in bench press!!
marcus win daniel in deadlift!!!
130kg.. Marcus Kheng....

then went to do econs with dan and sylvester....
keep talking bout girls.. zz
oh well....
whats there to say? she took my breath away.

Cliff. stop pretending..
its fake, and you're fake..
stop being a player.

okay write to you again.
night night sd.

Yours
JiaHua.

how much did you love me
how much DO you?

hello goodbye; 9:35 PM

Monday, April 12, 2010

Dear Diary.

WA EFFFF...

my stomach is back to the food poisoning feel again.
i don't want to wake up in the middle of the night!
had a tough fight with it in sch...
ran to toilet
urine thru pigu
wtf!?

SICK SHIT.....
i think im gonna be sick again. ):
sigh......

Yours
JiaHua.

Step back.
take a good look around....
is this what you want?

hello goodbye; 11:09 PM

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Dear diary.

13 posts away from my old blog!
i totally TOTALLY wasted the weekends....
saturday went cycling with dad, then slack whole day.
today, LIE DOWN AND USE LAPTOP WHOLE DAY!
gosh i freaking hate weekends.....
i'm so scared now..
i dont even know got what hw..
):
write to you soon...

Yours
JiaHua

gosh she's tempting me.

hello goodbye; 7:49 PM

Friday, April 9, 2010

Dear diary.

Today was SR Olympics!
i took part in 5v5 bball, 1500m and 30x200m
first up... 1500m..
arjune against me.. ):
i tried to pace him.
but he was my sprinting speed throughout the race..
so couldnt help but do my own pace..
started off as 3rd..
end up wa overtake until i become 5th! only got 6 runners!
but slowly the guy that paced arjune died off.
became 4th..
then jeremy is in front of me!
cannot let him win..
so i chiong infront of him and keep pace... dont let him overtake.
so end up i got 3rd..
with arjune and eugene infront of me.. both 8minute-ers in 2.4km..
died after finishing the race...
1 medal down. :P

next.. 5v5 basketball!
aiya i know we wont win one la..
2nd half we still winning.
then brian think he v cool, try to throw ball against board
for rebound during free throw
throw also duno how to throw..
throw over the board..
wasted..
then lao da tyko shit shoot 3point
wtf la.
then we lost lor
==
but still.. 2nd..
another medal! :P

then 30x200m
POWER LA DEY...
bodykong... chiongster..
started at the back, chiong all the way to the front straight..
then next, JEREMY.
CHIONGSTER AGAIN!
so pegasus first.
then, came ppl who fell and drop the medicine ball.
so we became last amongst the houses...
my turn.. i never run 200m
so smooth before..
it feels so great!!!
i felt so free..
but when i passed on the ball to jiayu..
reality came back ):

oh well.. pegasus won
every
single
sh*t....

Girls overall champion: PEGASUS.
Boys overall champion: PEGASUS.
OVERALL champion: PEGSUS.
is that PWN or.. PWNED?

then went for lunch at pizzaaa harttttt

wa my wisdom tooth is killing me..
still gotta wait till get into NS then remove..
if not gonna cost me hell lots of money. which i dont have.
): oh well.. LIFE.
Lets Input Failure Everywhere.

Yours
JiaHua.

hello goodbye; 7:31 PM

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Dear diary.

right now i'm awaiting tmr to face the 1500m Challenge!
tmr will be 1500m, 30x200m and bball finals!
i'm gonna pace arjune tmr..
heard he's dam good..
i just hope i can run him down..

today's bad....
so boring... and unproductive..
kinda wasted my day away...
went for rehearsal then went to play frisbee.....
idk. frisbee is so fun.. i think i'm forgetting bout bball..
hope tmr i still rmb..
i'm so tired today..
but seems like ppl are waiting for 10pm
to decide when to register our medical checkup!
gosh i'm tired.. ):

okay.
i'll write to you soon....
i'll just lie down and wait for 10pm to come.
Night nights..

Yours
JiaHua.

hello goodbye; 9:04 PM

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Dear diary.
today was quite a bad day..
i kind of hate my life now.
nobody wants to feel alone...
that includes you, tho you're not someBODY...
thats the reason i'm writing to you (:
basically, i'm just left with nobody else to talk to
except you.
i guess life just isn't going my way..
there's nothing i can do to change that.
except to change the way i look at it.

Why is the lonely man always alone?
not becuase he wants to be alone..
It's because nobody dares to make friends with him..
why?
because everyone around him
thinks that by making friends with him,
people will start avoiding them...
start changing the perceptions about them..
because they are scared of what people might think of them.

think about it.. who wants to be alone?

I'm still kind of doing my chemistry tutorial..
eyes are on the verge of shutting down on me...
sleep is just a small portion of my life.....
not that i dont need much sleep, but i dont GET much sleep.
tonnes of work, Revision, Morning calls....
i dont know how long more i can take this life.
I don't have a direction anymore.
i feel so lost.

Why do i always think of her when i try to rid her from my mind?
Enough is enough. I want a fullstop right here.
but my pen just isnt heavy enough to make that mark.
oh well.
Let the story be continued until it stops..
Story of my life.
bring on the pain.

will write to you soon enough.

Yours
JiaHua.

hello goodbye; 10:21 PM

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Dear Diary.

It has been 3 days.
so how have you been? (:
i'm fine... i hope...
just feeling a little dejected in life.
life just sucks.. so bad for me...
yesterday had to go to school at 730am for class.
but bought a couple bag with jiayu.
after class at 945 had the parent meet with mr nordin.
just talked so much bout me.
i thought i would lose my lappy..
then had econs lecture
so tired in there... can't seem to pay attention! i hate econs now!
then went for bball.. so tired
i really cant keep myself awake even when running/walking..
went home, bathed and tried to sleep
but pigzhen want me to talk to her..
keep pestering me bout her "vamp"...
keep asking me stuff that she KNOWS THAT I DONT KNOW.
oh well.
today's gonna be wasted as well..
packed my file when i just woke up..
so now the stuff in my file are ready, just that i dont have a file
LOL.
but my file's so thin as well! ): oh no..

well. i guess thats it for now (:
i'll write to you soon enough.

Yours
JiaHua.

OH well... Here it goes again.

hello goodbye; 12:47 PM

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Dear diary.

Okay i know.. i havent wrote to you for very long....
i'm so tired now so i'm gonna keep it short.
today had bball 5v5 heats..
played relatively well today....
hope it can keep up like this.
blocked 1 shot...
made quite afew shots...
idk i just felt confident taking the shots...
and i just put it in with ease.
felt good to be shooting so well today.
so now we are in the finals, to be played on 9th april.
but i also have 1500m as well as 30x200m!
i dont know how i'm gonna cramp my way to death.

i'll be off to sleep now.. night nights. sd..
sleep tight. will write to you some time soon.

Yours
Jia Hua.

hello goodbye; 11:38 PM