HELLO. GOODBYE.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Dear diary.
today was quite a bad day..
i kind of hate my life now.
nobody wants to feel alone...
that includes you, tho you're not someBODY...
thats the reason i'm writing to you (:
basically, i'm just left with nobody else to talk to
except you.
i guess life just isn't going my way..
there's nothing i can do to change that.
except to change the way i look at it.

Why is the lonely man always alone?
not becuase he wants to be alone..
It's because nobody dares to make friends with him..
why?
because everyone around him
thinks that by making friends with him,
people will start avoiding them...
start changing the perceptions about them..
because they are scared of what people might think of them.

think about it.. who wants to be alone?

I'm still kind of doing my chemistry tutorial..
eyes are on the verge of shutting down on me...
sleep is just a small portion of my life.....
not that i dont need much sleep, but i dont GET much sleep.
tonnes of work, Revision, Morning calls....
i dont know how long more i can take this life.
I don't have a direction anymore.
i feel so lost.

Why do i always think of her when i try to rid her from my mind?
Enough is enough. I want a fullstop right here.
but my pen just isnt heavy enough to make that mark.
oh well.
Let the story be continued until it stops..
Story of my life.
bring on the pain.

will write to you soon enough.

Yours
JiaHua.

hello goodbye; 10:21 PM