HELLO. GOODBYE.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Waiting for your half.

Dear Diary

Today was a bad day.
and so was yesterday.

Yours
JiaHua

hello goodbye; 9:52 PM

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Dear diary

the mid years are over, like finally?
yesterday was the last paper.. phy paper 1.
mcq what.. anyhow lor..
no mood anyways. idk why..
i wasn't in the mood since the morning
but i only realised that in the evening la.
took me so long.. ):
anyways
end liao i went to suying's house to "gamble"...
she stay freaking at punggol can?
go to kadaloor... duno wth is that station..
reach there, ask her how to go.
she tell me "come down to supermarket that side."
i go down nia didnt even realise they staring at me
LOL
then they started asking me if i got bring money.... LOL?
anyways. Anna and Yujun came down with Suying.
had my few minutes of star-dom....
reach up there, wa they playing 3 man mahjong..
and anyhow play one... they dont count by "tai" or "fold"...
they count by the number of left over tiles on the wall
that havent been opened yet... each tile is 10 cent.
WTF?
liddat one round can win 30+ dollar leh.
kent drew was sitting there, duno how to play.
so they play 3 man.
then yujun take over.... and she already losing 40+...
end up lose 70+..
sit there, they ask me wan play mahjong or not...
er... NOPE... play their mahjong sure die.
lose till DIE.
so i just sit there play blackjack..
lost 5 dollar.. cus their blind is 50cent.
then they wan play cheat..
so i sit out lor.. cus im the 5th player..
and it's their class bonding not mine..
then zach say he reach already.... suying ask who wan go down wit her.
nobody answered her..
then she was like
"wth jiahua come you all wan go with me.
zach come nobody care."
then yujun and anna were like
"oh jiahua famous ma.. our ogl leh."
LOL? stardom again :P
okay then soon after, suying say must
finish the bottle of beer she bought.
so she ask me help her open...
w/o can opener.
walao stupid.. the wall outside her house so weak la.
i just press the bottle cap down against the edge
the edge fall out la.. zzzzz
so no point... go back into the house.
find something else to use.
then zach use the scissors..
but no str to open.
so he ask me..
go kiap the scissors on to the cap
one shot "PSTHH" the whole cap fly off duno where LOL!
then take the cap back..
then its tiger time. LOL all want to leave liao ):
so pour into a cups..... everyone drink one. except andrew.
i drank my cup.. finish liao..
then kangting was kinda drunk on her one cup? LOL
she started staring into space...
then suddenly "heheheheheeeee"
WTF?! hahaha
then they ask if i can finish another cup for them...
so i help lor.. they all dowan drink and dun dare to drink.
then buy for what LOL.
so waited for eileen to come to have dinner with us.
then the rest go liao. left me zach suying kentdrew.
dinner time.. eileen is here.
went down to find her..
pigging out in the supermarket buying potato chips!
so i returned her gc..
and then went to eat....
wa the meal sucks.
the 'sweet sour' fish slice
FREAKING SALTY LA
so i just ate the vegs and the rice.
then kentdrew left... he left for HK today.
so we left too..
for home.
sit on the train so long.
then eileen went bishan with me.
walk to the taxi stand with her... her mommie's there.
then "bye bye" go home liao.

today morning call her she cannot wake up.. 20+ calls wor.
then she almost late. LOL.
but rich girls where got such thing as late in their dictionary one right?
either hitch a ride / grab a cab / DADDY FETCH.
oh well.
Life's like that.

Yours
Jia Hua
Can we pretend that Airplanes in the night skies are shooting stars?
I can really use a wish right now.

hello goodbye; 11:53 AM

Monday, May 24, 2010

Dear diary

BOOO!whatever..
today was phy paper 3...
SO DAM HARD CAN!?
im not being a hypocrite but seriously dam hard.
its the first time i feel so uncertain about the answers...
but at least i managed to finish what i'm supposed to.
but had quite afew i totally duno how to do.. especially thermal physics.
gosh i tell you. i fainted looking at that qn. my WHOLE QUESTION wrong.
zzzzzzzzz
i cant even PROVE (i).
then i didnt put a negative sign for (ii), which means WRONG..
cus a positive sign means work done ON gas,
but it is work done BY gas.. whatever shit?
then i dont even understand (iii)...
*wtf is internal energy?!* *gosh.. skip.*
and as for (iv),
you need to know how to do (iii) to know the assumptions made. =.=
WTF?! the whole question i duno la!
anyways tmr is math.. i hope i dont screw up again..

Yours
JiaHua.
Tower over me.

hello goodbye; 2:17 PM

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Dear diary

today was econs paper1 and physics paper 2....
oh well.
what can i say?
econs paper 1 was 2 case study questions....
how can have time?
left like 14 marks blank?
LOL.
next was physics...
dam.... no time either...
just give me 10 more minutes i can finish the paper, with 2 minutes to sleep.
dammit la!
i left with last qn never do sia!
do also do wrong.. so kan chiong, the whole qn i never read i just do.
zzz Cooling rate is negative gradient
i go write gradient.
then calculation i just calculate gradient..
then didnt see the unit..
zzzzz
then never see cooling rate also.
zzzzz
then the rest of the qn after that... blank..
can't believe it..
nordin's gonna kill me
but at least im pretty confident of the other questions
maybe full marks.... LOL.
cannot la... explaination questions cannot get full marks one..

Yours
JiaHua
I wasn't just decieving.

hello goodbye; 8:59 PM

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Dear diary

today's math was... still okay...
but i didnt do question 10 and 12.... total of 26 marks... dammit...
but the rest i was pretty confident except some extra questions in the middle
like... qn 2 and qn 3....
then the rest all im pretty confident.

oh well tmr no paper for me
but she's down for chem
all the best to you.

the thought of letting you go never crossed my mind
i never thought it would be so hard.
i don't want to be affecting anything in her life....
thats why i have to keep it to myself.
this is the reason why you have to "keep your emotions to yourself"

today woke up to a f*cking hurting wisdom tooth.
i couldnt even close my mouth...
f*ck this.... its taking my appetite awaay......
Breakfast is off the menu....
whats next wisdom tooth?
what else do you want from me you f*cking piece of bone?

Yours
JiaHua

i don't know how it feels anymore.
i simply don't.
it's a battle that's taking up too much
of my energy trying to fight.
just kill me off.

hello goodbye; 12:18 AM

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Dear diary

today was math..
and it was..... not very fantastic..
i think i'm falling sick again.
flu bug is here... ):

Yours
JiaHua

hello goodbye; 1:38 PM

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Dear diary

today was _____.
i can't find a word to describe today.
anyways.
wishing you a happy birthday, JingYi.
i hope you enjoyed the cake apart from the day.

i'm really planning to let go of pursuing.
whats the point of fighting a losing battle?
we are never going to happen.
today shall mark the day...
the day i finally close my door to anyone.
i love her, but i will play it passive from today.
because she's nobody else.
and i love nobody else.

Yours
JiaHua

3 reasons why I love you:
I love you because...
1. I'm prepared for everything. Everything except you.
2. You're my million reasons to smile.
3. You had me at "Hi"

hello goodbye; 11:13 PM

Friday, May 14, 2010

Dear diary

i got another diary..
but don't worry i will keep you updated (:
born-to-please-you.tumblr.com.

visit me if you got the time (:

yours
JiaHua

hello goodbye; 11:33 PM

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Dear diary.

tmr is phy spa already.
i didn't study....
idk how to study anyway..
dammit. i havent studied much at all...
i'm so gonna flunk my MYE...
spent my whole of yesterday out..
at vivo...
was looking for that shop...
i really want the best for her..
the best she can ever have.

oh well.. let's see how it goes.
take it with a smile

Yours
JiaHua

i'm just so confused.
I don't want to get all the wrong signs.

not anymore.

hello goodbye; 9:45 PM

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Dear diary

my stomach ache days are over!!...
school hours are getting longer and longer..
or so they seem....
i dont know why!.
i'm so exhausted when i'm just halfway through the day..
came home today and sleep... wa SHIOK sleeping..

Yours
JiaHua

it feels good to know that you care..
but nothing is going to change the fact that you won't be mine.
cus i know it will never be my hand that yours rest in.
i love you.

hello goodbye; 8:49 PM

Monday, May 3, 2010

Dear diary

ytd was a waste...
i didnt study!!!
all i did was
go out to lan at 10.
watch ironman 2 at 1350.
went to eat level 30 chicken wings....
trust me, dont try the level 30...
try something lower....
like.... 12.. or lower..
30 was a killer...
the SMELL of it told me it was evil.
just put it in your mouth and your mouth will burn.
it's not spicy anymore..
its just plain painful.
summore i ate two...
didnt sleep until 4am.
just sat in toilet..
my stumach hurts..
until now..
someone put me out of my misery.

okay diary...
i'm going to stop writing to you from now....
no point writing so much anyway....

Yours for the last time.
Jia Hua

hello goodbye; 2:44 PM