HELLO. GOODBYE.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Dear Diary

im back from 1 week in malaysia.
First to penang.
then to Johor for ahgong's funeral

Penang: 4 days 3 nights.
I'll start from the start.
so boring.. reach there at 8pm at night, without dinner...
and it was a crazy 12 hour bus ride, WITH NOTHING TO DO.
i cant sleep so much anyways....
and the freaking "personal entertainment" CANT WORK.
reach there, the BEST THING was to go to hotel and slaaaaaaaaaack...
WOOT! (:

next day have to wake up early.... cus at noon we have some city tour..
knnb...
wake up so early.. 8.30am go out liao..
then walk so long.... then best part is rain.
we have 5 ppl, 3 umbrellas....
so grandma and aunt share one big one...
other aunt take one small one
and me and my cousin share one small one =.=
one person in one small one is already getting wet..
so shermaine and i are simply walking in the rain.
and not simply walking in the rain.
is walking i the rain from 830am til 1pm....
WTF?
fking hell its just dumb la.. walking for so long to find the
tourist attractions one by one..
and we cant find the peranakan house... walk for duno how man hours for that la =.=
then for city tour the guy show us where we alked before already =.=..
THEN show us how to get to the P house..
stupidity we stand opposite it.... and still duno its there-.-

then go to the duno wtf place....
eat the duno wth street stalls... lols.
not say v ice also..
then from day 1 till last day, EVERYSINGLEDAY we eat asam laksa =.= stupidity...
then nothing liao..
go home wawatch soccer... shiok-ness...
everynight watch soccer, free one... TV2 or TV1....
then that night dun have.. so must go the lounge downstairs...
watch on astro....
buy ORANGE JUICE! :D
then theres this stupid guy..
duno who he supporting.
chile vs switzerland..
Chile scores! but 3 offsides..... LOL.
then that guy unhappy..
pull hair...
then switzerland miss!
he also not happy..... punch wall......
then Chile finally scores!
he throw his cig box on the ground..
then stupidly have to pick it up cus he want to smoke.
lols...
then later he just keep unhappy unhappy.... stupid la =.=
then next day.. go to Patu feringghi or whatever...
there got pasar malam... then walk for so freaking long... walk and walk and walk...
for what?
NOTHING....... on the beach.. then they dun let us play in the water. =.=
then ahma start to complain....
then we are getting bored.. and feeling that its stupid....
then suddenly it became SUCH A GREAT TRIP!
finally guma says that she allows us to play the watersports... and she is paying..
first up... parasailing.
run and run .. then the guy know we from SG.. then keep saying 369 369. LOL.
then make fun of us... make us fall into the water.... then chiong v fast to go high...
then ending we land....
not scary one.. not fun also.. just the view that is nice....
then i thought it was over...
then guma said she'll pay for one more watersport! :D
so we went to what they call the viper....
its just a 4 man float, lie down one.. then the boat pull you very fast...
wa that one nice.
it feels just like a roller coaster...
must hold on tight.. if not will fall off....
i so scared i fall into water cus its so fast.. it will hurt so bad la..
so i hold dam tight..
but me and shermaine add up also not 100kg.....
she's the same weight as me... just see how light i am.. =.=
so we just keep FLYING off the seat.... and i have to PULL myself down.
LOL
just as my hands got v tired, shermaine fell off... LOL.
so typical way of falling off!
she bounce bounce bounce and legs up fall backward OVER the backrest...
LOL
dam funny la wtf...
then have to go back get her up.. she cant get up.. so must pull her up LOL.
then keep screaming
then she was like... "oh myy..... Gosh".. but before she can say gosh
alll the water go into her mouth LOL.
then ending, the boat turn very quickly....the float was like flying SIDEWAYS.....
shermaine almost fell off again...... so grab tight to on my arm....
so fun.... the freaking ride was SO FUN.
:D
then go to the pasar malam buy me a shirt and pants....
then go back....
to the hotel watch SOCCER! :D
then go home liao next day zzzzzz sibei sian....
next day got school....

Go home sleep.. wake up early go to school for math.. zzzzzzz
math ends at 3.... supposed to end at 3.... then mr ng extend.. but i cnt stay
cus going back to johor bahru for my ahgong's funeral....
go back there.. look at him.. it so weird to see someone that passed away...
he's just not moving... its just like... a battery operated machine.... when the battery life ends
it stops moving... it stops working...
and ahgong just lies there helplessly without life..

first evening on, we have to kneel down every 1 hour or 1.5 hours for at least half an hour..
starts with 30 mins.. grows to 1 hour...
and i didnt bring long pants..... zzzzzzz it hurt so bad....
then first night go back to sleep at ahma house....

wake up in the morning to see boy boy awake.. so cute..
play with the boyboys.... then go to the funeral again...
nothing much to describe...
then for the 2nd night, we stayed at the funeral overnight.... me and my sister...
dad and mom went back to ahma house to sleep.
i did phy until 5.30 am before i died off...
so tired....
lie down to catch some sleep... but it gets SO DAMN COLD....
but nevermind... just dont care.. all the way til the morning.. so dam cold... didnt sleep much.. too cold...
finally it was morning.. but also, damn... its morning..
that means ahgong is going to be cremated today.
start the last few rituals....
then dad told me to go see ahgong for the last time...
went to see him..
his body already start to decompose....
his left cheek sunk in and his left eye is all swollen..
then when everything else is taken away except his coffin and the table,
everyone started crying....
it was actually quite saddening to know that it's the last time you're ever going to see your grandfather.....
it just breaks your heart as you think about the times you spent with him and not telling him how much he is to you..
and it was also the first time i've seen my mom cry so hard...
with all the soft screams..
i didnt cry but you know its all just held back...
as the coffin is being carried up the undertaker's van, everyone broke into tears..
this is what you call love.
finally as ahgong is unloaded to be cremated, i realise how much i didnt know ahgong..
how i didnt really talk to him alot...
2 hours later we came back to get his ashes to be put in the temple.

i think that should round up all that i experienced for the past few days....
for the past whole week....

Yours
JiaHua.

hello goodbye; 7:21 PM

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Dear diary.

okay i failed econs.. U.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
anyway last friday i didn't go for econs cus i was
at CMPB central manpower base...
to do my NS checkup...
okay speed it up a little.. did many tests..
urine test, blood test, audio test, eye test, chest xray, then some random shit test...
then came 3 hours of IQ test. wtf...
sitting infront of the computer for 3 hours doing stupid iq tests
is just PURE STUPIDITY....
that aint gonna test our iq... to walk out of there is high IQ.
so.. speed it up, im in PES a....
bluh bluh went to burger king to eat double whopper. WOOT
sibei shiok after starving in the cmpb..

what about today?
i wanted to do physics/econs...
but realised econs dont have tutorial book at home...
physics duno neeed to do what..
dam..
end up playing
til 3... then go watch movie with sylvester...
first is the A team...
highly recommended....
then we went to long john silver for early dinner...
then went to watch Karate kid..
also recommended...
lols best movies la.... i love it..
amazing movies coming up: knight and day...
OH and! Jonah Hex..... know why? CUS MEGAN FOX ACTING IN IT! :D

okay... left with math now.. and im going to penang on sunday..
coming back on thursday..
how about i keep you updated then?
night nights sd.

Yours
JiaHua

hello goodbye; 12:09 AM

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Dear diary

the past few days were the collection of results of the MYE....
i passed GP with E...
then it was time for Chemistry..
only 30% passed..
understandable la.. the paper was so freaking tough!!
but, remarkably, the paper came back and i got 50%!
Thats a D! im so happy cus i didnt think i could even pass.
then next was Physicssss....
gosh.... this one i scared..
everytime i feel good bout the paper, i end up not doing very well.
end up, as usual, i lose to The Machine...
he's like the only guy who get A in the class?
and i got B...):
i'm still waiting for Econs to come back along with Math..
still having high hopes for Math, so dont let me down ):
so far w/o PW i got 28.25 points.... i must get 40 to get pastaaaa ):

okay... keep you updated.

Yours
JiaHua

hello goodbye; 1:43 PM

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Dear diary

I don't know what's wrong...
with me or the world around me.
everyone seems to be against me.
and I seem to be against everyone.
my whole body hurts now...
and im starting to fall sick again.
why can't we just fly away and never come back?
I feel so trapped and alone
it's such a dark and cold world that we are living in.
I don't want to need you anymore.
I don't want to feel that I love you anymore....
I don't want to fall for you once again.
Never again.
I loved you and got hurt loving you.
I've hurt myself loving you and i'll never make the same mistake again.

because i loved you.
and i still do.
but i can't go on loving you like this anymore.
it's just not working out..
for you
and for me.

Yours
Jia Hua

Is this how it all goes down?

hello goodbye; 9:54 PM