HELLO. GOODBYE.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Dear diary

Okay this is my second post of the day...
but now im here to make a rant..
i just met the stupidest person i'll ever meet in my damn life...
so. it went about like this...
so i was playing this game.. this FPS game..
(First Person Shooter)
then i lagged.. so i died... then after i died, they changed host. ==
Nevermind about that..
next... i spectate this guy..
IGN: "BlindFade"....
should be something like DUMBF*CK la..
so i was spectating him...
and he basically CAMPED and waited for ppl to come..
so i was fine with that...
until the time when it all changed..
an enemy walked by him from the front and doesnt see him.
so he shoots.. he doesnt kill the enemy.... (wow?)
and now the enemy realises where he is..
so he quickly turn and look down...
WTF?!
and guess what? he died!
know why?
cus NOT seeing your enemy doesnt mean that your enemy cant see you.
DUMB ASS!
and i told him that...
Me: "dude... you dont look at them doesnt mean they cant see you"
and guess what he said?
DUMBFK: "at least i make sure i dont get seen"
(i was like.. HUH? wtf? you just got KILLED DUDE)
DUMBFK: "and when they see me, at least i make sure they cant shoot me"
oh.. so looking down makes them go "OMG CANNOT SHOOT YOU..."
if that is the case i'll just walk around looking down in the battlefield...
and start stabbing my enemies...
please la.. i know you dont have a brain but....
use some sense.. its called the common sense! wtf?

Yours
JiaHua
W T F.

hello goodbye; 9:43 PM

Dear Diary

long long long time since i posted..
hmm.. recently... nothing happened.. LOL
everyday study till so late.. i cant study with ppl la..
i will just keep talking ==
anyways ytd we had to go back to school for the P talk and MATH TEST
P talk was.... expected la...
"devise a plan" "if you do not plan, you plan to fail..."
no... if you do not plan, you plan... not to plan....
oh well.. i make my schedule liao. IT SUCKS.. i finish EVERY SCHOOL'S PAPER
before prelim leh. then after prelim i do what?
lols... GGed.....
needs to cut my hair.. my fringe can touch the tip of my nose liao
NOBODY CATCHES ME :D
gonna cut everything except my fringe..
just need tahan 4 months more.. then go dunid cut hair til ns :D
so must keep my hair all the way till ns... if not i'll never
know how its like to have longer hair
hahaa. then math test.....
zzzzzzzzzz i have 2 complaints about it.
1. ITS SO FREAKING HARD!!!
2. ITS SO FREAKING COLD!!!
cant do la.. so anyhow..... then so cold...
finish liao go do chin up. WOA i want to learn Muscle up!
or what you call the POWER UP
whatever.
i want to do
wtf
no way. i cant.
LOL
anyways... i must get my 90 point... no no.. 95 point.. GP just pass. LOL!
cya ppl

Yours
Jia Hua

"i love you" wasn't just decieving.

hello goodbye; 12:24 PM

Friday, July 16, 2010

Dear diary

Today wasnt so good......
slept last night pretty early....
weird dreams again..... shall not elaborate..
my mom woke me up early today.... when i only need to wake up at 710...
so i tell her NO. then go back to sleep LOL
then suddenly my phone vibrated on top of the tv.... so loud...
so i woke up... 650.. zzzzzzzzzzz no way la....
huiting smsed me... O_O the same typical sms
that she would send...
"If you could live for another life, would you want me as your...
1.Friend
2.Cousin
3.Lover
4.Boyfriend/girlfriend
blah blah"
so i just slammed my phone on the bed and sleep.
LOL
tadarrr... 710.....
prepare to go to school...
mom wrote a note on the fridge and told me
that my bottle of honey is still in the fridge....
so i had my breakfast and went off.....
rch school, go give baby honey...
baby was with her darling liying... MUGGING.
and she dowan give me face... dowan to drink..
oh well.......
then i went to work out....
outside the gym as usual...
guess what...
i do chin up....
then got ppl do also...
they are like... those that cant pass chin up....
so they helping each other...
well, not bad... helping each other (:
since they took the shorter bar i went for the taller bar...
and guess what? the guy preparing to grab the bar liao..
i start to do he stare at me like some pervert or something la..
all of them stare at me la.....
how i wish i could just turn around and tell them "hey can don't look?"
lols.... its not like its very..... uncommon?
lols.. anyways.. then all lessons til 1230..
chiong to hougang mac to eat....
DOUBLE MACSPICY...
nah.. not very nice also. lols..
the new "shaker fries"....
SUCKS....
duno what the hell is "honey i-dont-know-what".
and when you shake.. finish liao you open.. wa all the powder go into your nose
SUPER pain
eat finish go back school do econs..
then phy..
the joke is physics......
sylvester started by asking "eh whats fissile nuclei?"
so i said.. nuclei that can undergo fission....
then next..
do halfway he stare at me...
then say "wa this question f*cking stupid"
then he skip 2 whole page....
then i "LOL!"
so i jump to the qn to help him....
=.= stare at qn i know how to do liao he duno LOL
never even read la he... lols
then when i reach one qn....
"calculate the energy released in the fission of one Uranium-235 nucleus."
then i calculate.... then i rmb his is like 3.5E-10 J.....
but mine is like... 189......
then i was like EH.. you wrong or i wrong?
then he flip back..
then he told me.. NO la... yours is in MeV.... mine in J....
then i was like.. ohh... no wonder.....
suddenly his face stone.. eyes big big..
stare..
"EH WAIT.... yours 189MeV?! MINE 2000+ LEH!"
fk.. i start laughing and laughing in the library...
he also start laughing like mad...
everyone stare at us and laugh
two crazy ppl laughing so hard in the library..
sly: "wa f*ck la means i everything wrong la!
wa f*ck must erase everything leh ccb..... hahahaha"
i cant stop laughing from then... 2000MeV... thats like 2GeV..
"eh you tell me where you see before 2GeV one."
so we keep laughing.....
then he said "wa F*ck la wait for you finish then copy la.."
so i do... finish liao he start copying..
then i said "eh wait... 115kg of uranium required?!
thats like.. gonna destroy the world 3 times la! OVERKILL~~"
then we start laughing again..
sly:"eh wait i think can leh..."
then he start calculating himself..
i stare at him calculate..
okay... he got my value of number of atoms required....
then he say "i know how liao.. see ah..."
then he put in some numbers...
and pressed ENTER...
his face stone..... silence.....
i look at the chain of number from the first number....
5.....................E53
"WTF YOU OVERKILL THE WHOLE UNIVERSE 5000 TIMES?"
hahahahaha we start laughing like mad again...
the whole library session was just laughing.
then we cant do the last qn....
stone dam long..
sly:"I KNOW LIAO...." then he told me some crap that i already told him doesnt work and he AGREED that it wont work...
sly:"F*ck you la i told you already"
wth?!
LOL
and the process kept repeating itself... idk why he keep saying he know
when he dont..
LOL
gotta go..

Yours...Hopefully?
JiaHua

if you cant get out of love unhurt, why cant you just... NOT get out?

hello goodbye; 7:44 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Dear diary

well... today wasnt the best of days......
and so was yesterday..
i feel like im dumb or something la..
i hate my sister... i hate myself....
now my sister has a uni course...
and she told my dad one night before the day of school fee submission
that she have to pay the school fees the next day....
and guess what? its a f*cking 30grand? and it's not like its 30 dollars....
how the f*ck you expect mom and dad to pay 30grand in one night?!
come on not like you dont know we aren't exactly rich at all.
and you're still as f*cking last minute as usual......
you're already 19.... GROW UP ALREADY la walan eh....
stop being so f*cking irresponsible..
you know now mom and dad are discussing on how the f*ck they're gonna borrow 30 grand?
and if they do, from the bank, they have to pay 30 grand BACK TO THE BANK.. WITHIN 6 MONTHS before the bank starts counting interest....
it's not as relaxed as you think you know?
just... "oh last minute then tell them la.. nvm one... cheque only ma.. v easy to write".. NO, F*CK YOU.

hais... im just not in the mood..
and she has to add salt to my wounds....
how bad can my day ever get man?
i thought i already hit the bottom...
but guess what? THE BOTTOM GAVE WAY....
im still falling like a helpless loser falling from the sky....
i know im bound to hit something..
but that something's still a long way down i guess...
i shan't talk more about it....

Yours.
JiaHua

It's a long way down

We're so high off the ground

and I'm sending for an angel to bring me your heart.

Girl, where did you come from?

You got me so undone.

Gazing in your eyes you've got me saying
"What a beautiful lady. No if(s), and(s) or maybe(s).
I'm releasing my heart and it feels so amazing.
There's no one else that matters.
You love me, and I won't let you fall girl."

hello goodbye; 5:30 PM

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Dear diary

hello.
today was... not too good....
thats why i drank a little..
anyways...
today was just another ordinary day.... go to school..
do some work out....
to class....
then break.... then lesson again...
and then, math test....
1hour 45 min for 6 questions?! that was like...
wth...
too long la!
LOL.
i dont usually finish my tests on time..
but guess what? i finished it with 30 mins to spare!
and i even slept.... LOL

how i wish i could just sleep in the LT and never wake up...
never wake up to reality because the dream provided me
with everything i ever wanted...
all i did was just close my eyes and it was her standing in front of me
smiling and talking to me...
she said she promised me something....
i can't remember now.. because it was all just a dream....
then it all came... the "put your" to the "pens down"....
why can't he just do it silently without waking me?
and i still remember how it felt to walk that long lonely stretch with her.
her ever so sweet smile...
and that ever so hurtful goodbye..
i wish we didn't have to say goodbye each day..
to wake up to her smile...
but i'll never be good enough for her...
I'll never win the fight... She's all i ever wanted.... Except that she's more...
I just hope she's going to be happy...
life hasnt been easy on me....
i feel like im drowning in this pool called life...
baby, save me...

Yours
JiaHua

Me + You = Together Forever, Never Apart.

hello goodbye; 7:54 PM

Saturday, July 10, 2010

~Happy Birthday to Me~

Dear Diary

it's been a long time since i last wrote!
really long time...
anyways.. nothing much happened either...
nothing interesting in my life at least...
today's my birthday and im staying at home rotting away...
Alone at home......
i mean.. my grandma's house.....
oh well... at least i have time to myself...

*sighs*... she'll never know how it feels to recieve a text
and realising its not her... the adrenaline rush
when the phone rings, but when the number turns up,
its not her...
your heart just sinks...
and now she says she's stressed up by her studies.....
and you just wish that you can just shut the doors to everything else
and freeze in that moment forever with her......
you just wish you can take away her troubles of studying...
but you can't... and now you start to fear
just because you can't do anything to help....
Thats just how bad i hate myself..... for not being able to be there
to provide her with the comfort that she needs so badly,
to hold her and tell her that everything's gonna be alright....

Whee today was like... go to school in early morning omgwtf..
so tired.....
reach sch go to math lecture.. SO COLD CAN!
sit there alone so cold no jacket....
sit the whole lecture summore... until 12.. waa can die...
then 'Sharan' msg me....
then i was like.. 'oh.. sharan... but i don't know sharan'.
LOL
alot of random number that i dont have one msg me...
including my aunt! :X i forgot to save her number LOL
she was like "Happy 18th Birthday... 18 years old already can commit crime"
LOL wth..

anyways.. i'll talk to you sometime soon, i hope..

Yours
JiaHua

She made him laugh, She made him cry...
He never should have said goodbye...
For he could never bear to part
With the girl that stole his heart.

hello goodbye; 9:51 PM

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Dear Diary

hello. came back from school quite some time ago...
anyways. yesterday was out at hougang watching soccer with sly
he bet brazil+Uraguay.... and guess what...
brazil didnt just not win the game with holland.
brazil LOST.. lols.
didnt even draw la.. it was a clear LOSE.
2-1... lols. just watch sly tear his betting..
hahahha. actually supposed to watch the uraguay match
but end up since already lose, no point watching....
marcus kheng said ghana will win... LOL i told sly uraguay will win...
and im right :D
anyways today's match got Germany vs Argentina...
and also Spain vs Paraguay.....
i bought 10 on Germany+Spain....
fk i just hope germany win la.... germany win i .99 percent win liao
LOL
if i win i win back 41 dollar leh.. means profit 31..
but lose.. then too bad la.. sly win lor? LOL
Go go go germany!!

i just found out how much shit im in now...
for the past.... 4 days or so....
she haven't failed to occupy my mind la...
the more i think the more i feel lost...
im just so confused.... can anyone help me out?
i feel like i'm drowning in ice water...
i know i shouldnt be thinking of her anymore....
but it's just not working....
and drinking won't solve my problems anymore.
i'm just so confused, so lost... so.... me.
somebody save me?

Yours
JiaHua

hello goodbye; 5:09 PM