HELLO. GOODBYE.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

~Happy Birthday to Me~

Dear Diary

it's been a long time since i last wrote!
really long time...
anyways.. nothing much happened either...
nothing interesting in my life at least...
today's my birthday and im staying at home rotting away...
Alone at home......
i mean.. my grandma's house.....
oh well... at least i have time to myself...

*sighs*... she'll never know how it feels to recieve a text
and realising its not her... the adrenaline rush
when the phone rings, but when the number turns up,
its not her...
your heart just sinks...
and now she says she's stressed up by her studies.....
and you just wish that you can just shut the doors to everything else
and freeze in that moment forever with her......
you just wish you can take away her troubles of studying...
but you can't... and now you start to fear
just because you can't do anything to help....
Thats just how bad i hate myself..... for not being able to be there
to provide her with the comfort that she needs so badly,
to hold her and tell her that everything's gonna be alright....

Whee today was like... go to school in early morning omgwtf..
so tired.....
reach sch go to math lecture.. SO COLD CAN!
sit there alone so cold no jacket....
sit the whole lecture summore... until 12.. waa can die...
then 'Sharan' msg me....
then i was like.. 'oh.. sharan... but i don't know sharan'.
LOL
alot of random number that i dont have one msg me...
including my aunt! :X i forgot to save her number LOL
she was like "Happy 18th Birthday... 18 years old already can commit crime"
LOL wth..

anyways.. i'll talk to you sometime soon, i hope..

Yours
JiaHua

She made him laugh, She made him cry...
He never should have said goodbye...
For he could never bear to part
With the girl that stole his heart.

hello goodbye; 9:51 PM